Moments B4 D-Day

progress has been slow these 2 days, even now, i still haf 10 more chapters un-revised for phy tmr. but still, i enjoyed myself. my pace was like a balance between work and play. i had wondered if i had mugged shiongly in till now, i might haf broken down--or i might not. but the main reason for my difficulty now was the lack of everyday/lect/tut effort b4 the midterm. revision of the topics more recently took less effort. well... wat to do now?

did 2 past yr papers today. 2002/2004. i started w 2002 paper w lots of difficulty. i'd flunk dat paper. the 2003 one was much easier in the sense dat the qns were more 'familiar'. familiar qn-model... i hope they dun haf those kind of repetition habit where they oscillate between easy and hard papers every yr. yup... hope tmr's papers will b abt the same as 2003 one. i won't hope for an ultra diff paper, cos i noe those prcs will need difficulty level of phd in order to slip in exams.

we studied in engin for the past 2 days. angie was w me and fred yesterday. well, it turned out dat engin clsrms r hot commodities. or yar... it's really better to study in sch. more conducive. herd instinct. aniwaes, the clsrm we were in was super crowded. usual all seats almost taken. there was a distinct gp of ppl, affiliated some how or another. fred was grumbling away at how some of them look v kiam pa. i agree tho, but not as much to HIS extent. usually, i haf no interest in most things. but one guy really looked VERY kiam pa. aniwaes, it seemed dat some of them r from hc... the odd one out seemed to b fr nj, who lived in my old neighbourhood. yup... the guy who waited w me at the busstop outside 111 market for 961 everyday. well... is hairstyle and colour has changed so much i cant b 100% sure.

another pt of tot... how come they haf such a big gp? i can't form gps from my tut gp, cos there r only 5 s'poreans and mainly prc who wont mix w us. but ppl from the same og go to the same tut gp wat... unless they come from the same army unit... or sec sch... but... how come i dun haf such a privilege? some times i really suspect it was a mistake going into a cls dat's so 'artsy' in hc. i mean, there r only 3 ppl i noe who study engin... peipei... not same yr, ntu some more. zhiqiang... i dun even see him around. i lost contact w my frens in 3i. the main gp went to rj and nj, my click went to rj. so... shd i haf gone w them and studied bio w them? after all, it was my best subject in my whole life. aniwaes, the sad fact is dat it's so hard to fit in nus. it is not as if i'm a foreign student or wat. in fact, foreign students haf their own click lor. haiz... i juz dun fit into my own society anymore.

wat more to say? juz realized dat my last chi entry was like end of last mth...

resonating on my fujitsu lifebook: 《我一个人住》 by 苏慧伦

Zenov Yap at 11:24 PM

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Around NUS

haven't been doing the rundown of wat i've been doing for the past few days. wat to say abt the daily happenings in the library? however, i've been doing things to vary my life, tho slight, but still varied, and now i dunno if i'd spent too much time on the variation.

one great variation was studying w fred. i tink i'm rather despo to grab anybody who's willing to mug w me, even tho we had not one common module at all. for the company comes the distraction. we'd tok, we'd go around eating regularly... yar... not only haf my efficiency went down, but my wt went up... again. budden, i believe the next time we will come together so often will be next sem's mugging period. how then?

been in the library so much of the time, but i dun really like 'recognize' a lot of ppl of ppl. one thing dat the traffic in the lib is quite high, not only in terms of per unit time, but also dat most who study today mit not b ard for the next few days, or they mite haf 'migrated' to other parts of the lib. yar... even level6 isn't dat small.

abt those whom i noe, there were a few gps. one is the gp who always bk discussion rm 6 (they haf not been in there for a few days liaoz, cos the competition too fierce for the rm). well, gd riddance. they R noisy. as tho they were having a party in there. i wonder how hi their efficiency is. not dat if they're noisy, they're not efficient. for all u noe, the're 'noisiness' is on a relay. haha... then there's this gp of ppl, whom i'm so filled w envy. i tink they're from engin, not freshman of cos. the almost all the huys look so shuai and the gals look so chio and hot. i mean, it seemed dat birds of the same feather really flock together. i suppose they muz b one of the 'superstar'(in the gd sense, cos in bmt, superstars r those showy ppl who wanna go ocs) gps of their yr. yar... some ppl look so gd dat they still look gd no matter how sloppy they dress. y liddat? i hope they're not gd in studies. =P

then there's this gp, w one guy who got the comical face of one of 旺福's guy, and this fat gal who looked so confident, u'll shrink when u c her. yar... neva seen such big sized gal w so much confidence worn on her face (and dressing also... she's neva scared to wear low-cuts, tho she avoid showing her legs. u noe lah... big-sized gals got bog boobs, so they tend to b rather proud of it tho...). so much so i wonder if someone goes to her and say bluntly dat she's fat and ugly, she'll cry or not.

oh... end up describing environment, not wat i do. hmmm... wat did i do? i came up w a budget thingy to control my spending. well, it isn't a gd control, but still let me noe how much cash is flowing out. i spent 192.00 last wk. largely due to dyeing and movies. (tokking abt movies, before sunset is not showing in any cinemas oredi! even tho it went into top 10 last wk). i spent some 40 bucks till today this wk. manly of FOOD. shucks... the root of all evil. how?

i went for counselling at yih too. juz to discuss abt my plan. guess i need someone to rattle to. i was hoping dat someone will help gif me some ideas too. it turned out dat he wanted me to haf a gd tok w my family, the hardest thing of all to do. but still, it feels better to vent off some steam, esp in the coming exams. aniwaes, he also suggested i go request for info to the uni directly. yup... din realize i could do dat. so i sent 2 enquiries out last nite.

yesterday's test sux. it was soooo difficult. of the est 5 ftns we had to complete for the program, i did only 2 1/2. in addition to the fact dat i cant compile my prog. so 30% of the test gone if the program is uncompilable. cos comments on the prog accounts for 10%, i focus on it in the last 10 min, cos i gave up trying to come up w an algorithm. it's not possible, at least for me. i only solved the prob to last wk's lab 1 hr prior to the test. yup... i got uneasy then, so i set out to solve the prob... spent 1 hr to get things rite. budden, 1 hr to tink is one tink. typing out is another. debugging is next. trying to rewrite a faulty algorithm is worst... but i've rarely came to dat stage.

been walking back to pgp, esp this wk, practically everyday. well, it's cooler at nite and to b caught walking to pgp in bright daylight is v paiseh... ppl will tink i muz b out of my mind. but at nite and esp this afternoon when i walk back, it's logical cos the bus timing is long. so much so dat i din see a single bus go past me today while i walked back. also, been trying to explore... at least new ways to thru biz to walk back. when i first started, i wlaked thru hss lib main entrance... a total detour. i've found a v nice way down from biz to amre. yup... it was a nice route too. nice scenery and there's a building, light synchroton building, which looked rather nice too (one of the better ones in nus), esp at nite, when its lites r on. i took some pix of it too. won't post up here, cos this blog is not user frenly to post pic. take thebefore sunset pic. took v long to get it shown... and yet only one image came out.

oh... i took the pix while i was studying at the terrace this afternoon. cos lib closed early... was looking for a gd space when i found dat the terrace had a gd view across the carpark. and while walking back (found the place too warm, so came back early), took 2 more pix. stupid panasonic... cam sux... i find dat the phy beauty of nus doesn't lie in its architecture (it sux all time), but its natural surrounding. realized it's occpuying gd real estate... 依山背景. it's the perfect place for condos... but no, they built an ugly sch here... to increase my suffering each time i tried to walk in/out of pgp from 33 bus-stop.

and speaking abt pix... some ppl wanna c recent pix of mine. tried taking some last nite, but the pix din come out nice. the 2 dat did din really show how my hair looked like tho. so how? interested?

went to eat at the food court in pgp... first time there. din realize they had a 2nd storey... and there were quite a no of ppl mugging there too. but i wun mug there. the aircon like no aircon, then there's the food and oil smell, the crowd... wonder how they survive there? but the surrounding quite nice leh... the decor not posh, but perhaps cos the sun is dimming, so lends a softer feel to the placel. the best thing was its windows dat looked out to the fusion cafe. i tink fusion cafe is the best place to b in pgp (speaking as a rm C tenant, cos i find the 'garden landscape' of the other clusters and the interior of the lecturers' quarters to b so much better than mine, considering dat the design is the same) aniwaes, the interior design of fusion is gd, esp its spiral staircase and the gd lightings. the food there is nice also. i wonder how much customers it haf... dun seem to b able to survive.

ah... so much for today lah... also dunno wat to say liaoz. sleep early. tmr wake up early go lib to chope a nice spot. yar... spent 4 more hrs than those who took the day off as holiday... so i'm not dat worse off... haha... 4 more hrs yar... stupid. holiday like no holiday. hmmm... dat's all...

Zenov Yap at 8:25 PM

Monday, November 01, 2004

From CL

hey dudes, making entries rite out of CL... a bit not dat packed, but still feel paiseh abt using the terminal for such use... =P hope no one notices... aniwaes, juz used this terminal to do my phy online assignment. shucks... i could haf got full marks at least for ONCE, but i made this careless mistake of not putting "." for 0.985 (thus 0985) and lost 1 mark. sianz... how? realized dat i still haf a lot of catching up to do... in order to lve 2 wks for the grand revision. stupid. haf a lot of tutorials not done. esp tmr's prog lab assignment... it's a BOGGLE!!! yes, we're supposed to write a prog to play boggle, but... it's an even bigger task than creating minesweeper. how?????

i had a brainstorm last nite on how i can make some quick cash, like joining singing competition... and the subaru challenge... budden, on the way to sch, saw on tvmobile dat the challenge is oredi 2 days going!!! huh??? im psychic sia... din watch news for days and can actually sense dat the contest is on and actually fantasize abt it. was rather disappointed too, dat i had let the chance gone by. tot the contest will b near x'mas? how come so early? caught me off-gurad. now hafta wait for another yr, perhaps. was tinking dat if i win dat car, i can sell it (no one in my family has a driving licence aniwaes...), and i mite make at least 50k quick cash!!! (dunno abt the market price of cars lah, but tot the profit would b there after paying commission...) budden, dream crashed. sianz... was quite confident dat my cheapskate nature can help me win... well... wat to do...

hehe... quite few ppl scouting for free terminal... kept switching to another window when they walk past... geh siaoz... =P now dunno whether to go watch before sunset tmr. jan seemed interested, but haven't given me reply. haiz... i dun wanna miss it sia...

Zenov Yap at 8:17 PM